Difference Maker

A difference is the biggest thing we can make in our world.

I often wonder what people will think when I'm gone. Death, I'm not afraid of. I know where I'm going. My memory is something I worry about; something that makes me strive for Jesus even more. When I finally get called Home, I want others to have seen Jesus exampled in me. I want every single person that even SEES me to know that I have a hope undeniable... my light needs to shine to ALL. Thats what I want. And though I think about this often, I usually don't apply it to my life. I am not living as though I were dying.

I want to touch lives! To get to heaven and to interact with all those God has led me to. To understand the full work Jesus was doing in me. Lecrae says, "The man in the mirror cannot see his own reflection," and I have taken this to heart. I will never see the full impact I have on others. Its impossible to tell how we influence those around us. We can only trust God that He is doing His perfect work in us... which He is! He will never stop working on us, and often times, He'll use us as tools for Him to work on others! Its like this big web of edification! Cool huh?

One thing I struggle with is following through. I need to learn how to live with abandon, for I don't always listen to Jesus's calling on me. He'll ask me to mention His name to a classmate, and I get scared and avoid it all together. I don't know why, its foolish! I am investing in ETERNITY! So what if I'm uncomfortable for a few moments? My flesh is so fearful of a little discomfort, I deny my spirit the opportunity for great acts of God. I need to die daily to my flesh; to live as though I were dying. To live with no regrets.

Have I lived my life with no regrets? I think I'd have to say yes. I've done a LOT of things wrong along the way, and I've fallen lower than I've ever thought possible, but Jesus has picked me up and set me on a high mountain! He has restored my life to heights I never imagined! There are many things I would do over if I got the chance, but I know thats just my pride speaking. God has allowed me to fall and stumble and rise again because it brings HIM glory! I live with no regrets because I know that He is glorified in me, even if I mess up and fail. "For we are not able to do anything against the truth, but only for the truth." - 2 Corinthians 13:8

And maybe thats what we all are missing. We don't need to question our every move, wondering if it will harm or benefit the image of Jesus we carry with us. That is way too legalistic. God doesn't want us bounded and constrained by laws we cannot possibly hope to uphold; thats why He sent Jesus! He gives us rules as barriers, not as musts for salvation. He wants us to know when we are glorifying Him, and when we aren't. So we don't need to worry about every little decision, rather, we can seek Jesus daily, faithfully, and once we start chasing after Him all else follows! As we pursue Jesus, we'll begin to emulate Him, live like Him, and then when He calls us home, we'll have left an image of Jesus in the memories of those still on Earth. And THATS what matters... I do NOT want to be remembered, I want the Jesus in me to be remembered! Thats why I strive to #LiveItLikeJesus.