November 27, 2014

Hey yall! Its been a long while. I was battling a fever for a week straight, and now my brain is still a little foggy and I've got a cough. Despite this, I wanted to write something because, like I said, its been a while since I've centered myself around Jesus and my writing.

I cleaned my room yesterday because it was VERY cluttered after being sick, and as I made my bed I realized I wasn't JUST making my bed. I was putting my life back in order. Something as trivial as a flu had shaken me. I lost the closeness I had with Jesus, and I neglected some of my school duties. Now, with Thanksgiving all around me, its hard to ignore the importance of family. And a lot of thinking has been going on in my brain. I'm more reserved than even I realized; not talking to my college siblings as much as many might think.

I need to get my priorities straight. I've been told many many times, especially by yall, that I need to balance my schedule. And the truth is, that is hard for me. I LOVE serving others and to turn down someone so that I can stay healthy... it doesn't seem right. Where is the selflessness in that? But also, I cannot help anyone if I'm lying broken in my bed. So I need a balance; one that only Jesus can bring. Thats what I am seeking out. Guidance.

And see, thats the cool thing about our relationship with our Father. He doesn't only love us, talk to us, give us things... He also helps us out! As I pursue Him and put Him first in my life, I will find that all the other pieces fall easily into place. I'll know when to serve and when to be served. I'll know when to study and when to hang out with friends or family. Everything will be guided by Him. I've been there before, and it is an AWESOME place to be. The problem comes with human pride, which tells God that we can manage better. Which we cannot. But our pride leads to a broken man who realizes his need for Jesus to guide his life. God lets us make stupid decisions to humble us! Thats kinda cool, ain't it?

Anyways, I hope you guys have a very happy and safe Thanksgiving. Keep the focus on Him and not on anything less, because He has blessed us so greatly! Have a fantastic one:)